Rainy Day in Upstate

Today is finally Friday and I couldn't be more excited about this small fact. This week has just been so long and I am ready for it to end. Having to work, do school, and have an active role in my marriage is draining to say the least, but somehow I always seem to have the energy to get through it all. I just can't wait for the day that I am done with school and don't have to worry about classes any longer.

We went to the OB last night for our 30 week check up and everything was looking good with the baby and with mom. During the visit the doctor was able to show us how the baby was currently positioned in the belly, so that was cool to feel it's little head and feet. I am very happy that things have gone smoothly and that everyone is happy and healthy.

I have to say that I am so fed up with upstate NY and I can't wait for the day that I am leaving this state with all of my possessions in toe. This city and state is just awful and I wish I was back in VA Beach with family and friends. This city and the entire upstate economy is just terrible and depressing that I don't know why anyone would live here. There is absolutely nothing that this city has to offer anyone professionally and socially. I just heard yesterday that they are going to lift the gas cap here in my county, which means they can tax more for fuel and that we could see $4 a gallon of gas very soon. This is the same state that has some of the highest taxes in the country. Of course this fuels my thoughts of why anyone would choose to live here. With currently high taxes and taxes that are going to get even higher, a depressed economy, a city that is dieing, businesses closing every week, and crime continuing to escalate this is no place to raise a family. I guess we will see if I am able to convince my wife to move to VA Beach sooner than later.

Well after that rant, I guess I will get to work.

More later.....

Just another day

Today looks like it is going to be just another day in a regular life in a regular town. This is of course fine for me and I am happy with where I am at in life. I have a beautiful wife who is pregnant with our first child and we are financially stable. This of course all could have changed last night with the drawing of the mega millions lottery. I guess that is why I entitled this blog spot just another day. The office that I am working in currently had a lottery pool this week to try and win the $135 million dollar lottery jackpot. This of course didn't happen and all we won was $3, but the thought and the dream of winning that enormous amount of money was fun. The thoughts and dreams are what keeps us going, it is our desire for a better life that keeps use on track. The talks yesterday in the office were interesting among those of use that pooled our money together for the lottery, because each one of us had different desires and ways that they would better their lives. If we had won it would have changed all of our lives and of course we would like to think that it would be for the better, but who is to say that would have really happened. We might have won and then become miserable and not happier with millions in the bank than we were when we only had a few thousand. So I ponder the idea that maybe it is better to play these types of games, like the lottery, so that we can keep dreaming and not actually winning. Is dreaming and the desire for a better life actually better than having these cars, houses, diamonds, vacations, and other material items that we yearn to have.

Thoughts for this regular morning, in a regular life, in a regular town......

April Fools

Today is April Fools day and I feel that things are crazier than ever. We are expecting our first child and I am very excited about this fact, but extremely nervous at the same time. I don't know what to expect and how I am going to handle being a father. We have been running around interviewing daycares, looking into pediatricians, and going to numerous doctors appointments. Starting next week we have to begin the birth classes and that will add even more to our already hectic schedule. I am glad that everything is going good with mom and baby, we are truly excited and can't wait.

The one big thing that I keep thinking about is the state of our country and world currently. I remember several years ago talking to an individual who said "why would you want to bring a child into such a messed up world". I never really thought about this statement until now when I am having my own child. The world we live in today is in such shambles with natural disasters, wars, terrorisms, and a continually sinking economy. In recent days I have thought deeply on this matter and have come to the conclusion that at any point in history there was always something going on that would have made it a poor time to have kids and bring a new life into the world. The time that we live in now is no different, yes the world is changing and things are much different now than when I was a kid. I think that if we raise our kids right and focus on our families then things will work out in the end and we will be blessed. I think that being parents and raising kids is a huge responsibility and a greatly rewarding adventure.

More thoughts later.....